"Be the Change you wish to see in the world" -Gandhi "I will be a Hummingbird, I will do the best that I can." -Wangari Maathai "Where stereotypes begin with a grain of truth, cliches begin with a boulder" - George Watsky "And she's gonna learn, that this life will hit you - hard - in the face - wait for you to get back up just so it can kick you in the stomach, but getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs, how much they like the taste of air." - Sarah Kay "Do not fear what has blown up. If you must, fear the unexploded." -Suheir Hammad

so at this moment.

I was not fine before. I had thoughts happy people don't have. I covered it up though. I did things i shouldn't. To help the pain. Then I was happy again. People couldn't tell the difference but I was genuinely happy this time. Now not so much again. I'm going back to what was. I don't like the being happy seen anymore. My old scene, much more cozy. I'm accepted, I don't feel weird. Less to do. Stuff inside doesn't seem so real. How I feel is how I feel. Oh how I wish people understood. I think i'm getting off now. To sleep. That seems nice. To not feel. Numbness.......nice.