I've been watching some home videos of me. Something, I didn't think existed anymore. Partly because I never gave thought to it, and partly because I have preserved my childhood in a museum that I don't like to visit too often.
But while watching these emotional videos that have made me both laugh and cry, I've learned two things about myself. I think I need to write them down somewhere, because for some reason I feel like I will forget I ever learned them.
When something is wrong, I like be around people. Being social and in the company of at least one person make me not feel alone, and thus ok with life. I've learned that a dog is a good substitute, but a cat is not. Reasons I'm a dog person.
I've also learned that one of my biggest pet peeves, and possibly the root of my other pet peeves is when someone puts a mask of a situation and tells everyone it's alright. That everything is peachy, and that things will just work out. But sadly, up until now, my way of dealing with this has sometimes been to exact this upon others. I don't know why. Maybe to try and understand the viewpoint of those who cover things up. I don't know.
I just needed to write this down. And share it.