"Be the Change you wish to see in the world" -Gandhi "I will be a Hummingbird, I will do the best that I can." -Wangari Maathai "Where stereotypes begin with a grain of truth, cliches begin with a boulder" - George Watsky "And she's gonna learn, that this life will hit you - hard - in the face - wait for you to get back up just so it can kick you in the stomach, but getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs, how much they like the taste of air." - Sarah Kay "Do not fear what has blown up. If you must, fear the unexploded." -Suheir Hammad

An unknown revolution

I feel a change. A good change. I don't think bad thoughts really. (Bad= negative). I've been very positive. All conflicts have been minor, or at least I've made them minor. I don't feel the need to fit in with anyone really. I have a family (outside of my actual family of course) that I can rely on, and call true friends. For once I can be myself around them. It took me 17 years and 11 1/2 years of my public school career, but I found it. And that's kind of the bitter sweet part. I found people I can call true friends, but only for another semester. It's a bitter sweet feeling, but for the amount  of pure joy that I m obtaining now, it might be worth it.

Not really my normal philosophical blog, but I felt the need to put it out there that I finally feel accepted, confident, and real. I didn't think it would be possible, but if it can happen in high school, maybe there's not a lot to be scared of next year. If I can go from being very self conscience (enough that I only wear a sweatshirt to school all the time) to a point where I will actually wear a skirt to school, I'm ok with that. Or accepted enough that I don't have to try to fit in, but I try to just make sure people are having a fun time because I care, I'm ok with that. Or real enough to know that I can be myself 24/7 I'm ok with that. And this may not last long, and next semester it may take a little to get back, but I know that it's possible now. It's obtainable. I'm not lost. This new feeling I have that snuck up on me, is the only sniper attack I'm ok with.